James 1: 2 - 5
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
These are the verses I feel like God has been trying to teach me from the past few weeks, well, maybe months. The trials I am facing are really minor and to most may not seem like trials at all but to this momma they have been. Sickness! No MORE! I feel like my two boys have been sick since Thanksgiving. They have had viral infections one after the other, Strep Throat, the Flu, ear infections, and now RSV. This has been the trial I have been faced with - to be a Godly Momma even during these sicknesses. To have JOY as we spend night after countless night awake and not sleeping, as we spend day after day at home and not at church or around others, as we go through bottle after bottle of Ibprophen, as we spend week after week at the doctors office and dollar after dollar to the doctor. Consider it Joy, REALLY, is that what it says. Joy that I am going through this trial.
As I read this morning, this helped me. James doesn't say if you face trials, he says When. He assumes we will all have trials but it is possible to profit from them. The point is not to pretend to be happy when we face pain but to have a positive outlook (consider it pure joy) because of what trials can produce in our lives. James tells us to turn these trials and hard times into times of learning to teach us perserverance. Our character develops during this time and God's using it to make us mature and complete. So see these times as times of growth. Asking God to help me have the strength to endure and to grow with Him during it all.
So, I guess I have been needing to grow. I'm thinking I needed some sickness to allow me to see I can't do this mothering thing alone (really God? I thought I had learned that by now, and being away from ALL family really is teaching me that) but to depend on God for my strength and rest (since I'm not getting any at night). Only God can give a mom the kindness and gentle Spirit and tame tongue she needs to stay at home all day and be a nice momma to sick kiddos. I'm praying I have learned from these trials of sickness and have persevered and past the test and can have all the sickness behind us for a little while.